procrastination? i dont know her!!!

 

happy saturday everyone! i hope you week has been as splendid as mine has <3

recently ive just spent my days trying to get ahead of work and college app stuff so i can have as calm as a semester as possible!! procrastination? i dont know her!!!

i just finished my "due" work but i do have work i want to get ahead in! and im also starting a club at my school so i need to get all the paperwork done soon.

outside of work i actually haven't done much like, actual(?), things such as like cleaning my room or doing laundry but thats what saturdays are for. im treating this post like a to-do list now, im going to do my laundry clean my room and get even more ahead of my work.

friday was such a perfect day too. i was originally going to post this then during my free periods but i got busy so im writing this now! i gave my letters asking for letters of recommendation back!!! they all said yes :3 which im super excited for. i really want to get all my college stuff out the way and as early on as possible. and then after that i got my advisor approved for my club!!! maybe ill make a separate post about it in the future because it is like a passion project for me at the moment. 

but take this post as your sign to stop procrastinating on your work, cleaning, or whatever it may be and get it done. because as my english teacher says, procrastination is an act of not loving yourself enough to help your future self, so act now and make things easier laterrrr

xoxo, karley susej

bushy brow representation

growing up my eyebrows were always the thickest in my class, especially since i grew up in a predominantly white/asian elementary school until 2nd grade. after i moved i still had the biggest eyebrows to the point where they became an insecurity.

now that im older it doesnt effect me as much, especially since i trim them now but seeing famous people been praised and they have the features i have really have been a positive in my look on how i perceive myself with them. not only that but also the fact that most of what ive seen is about mexican people, makes me feel more appreciated and better represented <3 

for one, i have always loved checo since i got into f1 because outside of having big brows, i was also so insecure of my ethnicity. being mexican (esp in this climate) is honestly so nerve-wrecking... but seeing someone who is just like me be so successful gives me hope

i love mexicans!!! i love how we dream and are able to show that we are not limited by climate, location, or time. we always get it #done. 

seeing people just like me, be loved in a way i wasnt able to recieve gives me hope that no matter what, someone out there will see me the way others see these people.

another example is hormiga !!! not only was he on the national team for mexico during the world cup but he is also on the team from which my family is from! las chivas have been my fathers pride and joy since i could remember. the fact that he is basically a representation of me wrapped in a package makes me hold him dear in my heart.

ive only seen love for his unibrow and because i grew up with not just big brows but also a unibrow, it helps my confidence knowing that someone just like me is loved.

i believe thats what representation is about, showing people that they are loved and that others like them do exist, we arent as lonely as we think we are. i mean theres 8 billion of us on here, surely one of them is similar to us in some way. 

xoxo, karley susej

last first day

i just got out of work and spent like an hour working on updating my blog, how is it? is it cute? i hope so i spent so long on it i got a headache. i plan on adding more things as i go, so it wont be so bare-bones for long #trust. 

anyways i want to talk about how my last first day went ^^ i spent 1st and 2nd period running around campus trying to get my schedule fixed but in the end i got to be a teacher's aide for my favorite teacher for both periods! her and i are superrrr close so this was great, plus shes an english teacher who studied in linguistics so shell be able to help me on my personal statement and piqs!!!! (im from cali and my dream school is uc berkeley so those personal insight questions are defo my priority!!!!) she had me clean out some old papers from the last years class to make space for new work :> it was fun being in her class again as ive somehow had her every year of high school.  

anyways after that i went to my ap gov class after, the teacher seems nice and as i write this i realize how many (4/6) of my teachers this year are old white men. but i digress, his period was okay, i had a friend in there and we were sat in the same table in the seating chart so it was a fun class. after i went to work, i work in the cafeteria at my school due to a program the district has, for like 25 minutes so it wasnt a lot but it was more-so meaningless work. 

afterwards i headed to my 5th period, english!!!! i love english, ive always said that its like an artwork but in language. theres all these intricate things that make up one final piece, i like to see it poetically. i knew majority of the class so i only felt a bit queasy, the reason being that the teacher... hes a bit off. i just cant trust him and especially because of everything ive heard before. hes just not gonna be a very comfortable class but i shall persevere until the end.

my favorite period has to be 6th, i have ib 2d art and i loveeee it. i love making art as much as a little kid does. it has always been one of my favorite things to do and make; it helps that i have a great art teacher too. since ib is a 2 year program, im taking their art period once again this year, which is great because i spent all summer preparing paintings and sketching ideas for my final portfolio. im just so excited but this year... might be wack. now nothing against my teacher, shes amazing, but the counselors overbooked her class by almost 10 kids... legally we can only have up to 32 students but the counselors shoved so many juniors into our class that its predominantly juniors (8 sr. and 30< jr.) and they are very loud. its just a new environment im not comfortabke with yet but even our art teacher said shes gonna be booting half of them out so i hope this sorts itself out right ;;

i honestly hate math, and i dislike the word hate because its so strong, but i genuinely hate math. and this year its only going to be worse... my teacher is maga and believes that ice is appropriate in their actions as well as just hates teenagers??????? idk... hes just weird and id prefer to have another teacher but he is the only person on campus who is offering statistics and i cannot go without my 4 years in math so i must endure heart broken emoji

thats about it for my day, outside of this massive headache and a few odd teachers i think it went well! i will have to deal with what i can and accept some losses but i must remember to push through! but anyways, i wonder how things will go... #wishmeluckforlater bai bai

first post heart emoji

hmmmmm idk what to write tbh. well for starters i feel like i should introduce myself, hello to anyone reading! im karley, a teen girl whos going into her senior year of high school. i made this blog because i wanted to originally make a youtube channel to document my last year but im very camera shy.. and i start tomorrow (aug 3rd) so i either overcome my fears in less than 24 hours or i find a compromise... and i compromise i found! ive been wanting to blog for a while now and this felt like the perfect time to start. my best friend, miriam, always says that its too late to start before so the best time is now! :3 following that ive decided i'll blog my senior year (and hopefully life afterwards). i actually went to the mall today to go back2school shopping, i got a few things that i either needed (like a black pair of slacks) or somethings ive been eyeing for a while. unfortunately the one thing i super wanted, a victoria's secret angel wing pink jacket, wasnt available ;;... very heartbreaking for me BUT it was fun to have the freedom of walking around the mall for a bit after being at home for so long! as i write im listening to illegal by pinkpantheresss, such a cute song and it really fit well with the vibe of my blog i think :o. i think thats all i have to say for now but i shall update how my first day back goes tomorow! im excited but i also have no idea what to wear... least of my issues i know but i dont want to be stressed when i know everything wll work itself out ^^ i firmly believe so. OH I JUST THOUGHT OF SOMETHING! i want to explain some elements of my blog! my birthday is around valentine's day, its even become a nickname for me in my family, so i wanted to reference it here, and i love angels... thats really it. i come up with ideas but i cant type as fast as i think so they appear and disappear as quick as they came ;;. i swear ill get better at it with this blog I SWEARRRR